I went to my doctor last week. Haven’t been in a couple years. So when the nurse said “Well at least you didn’t gain any weight” it was a surprise to me. I’ve been having my ups and downs. Adjusting to married life (that piece of paper really does change things) and adjusting to living a lot more frugal, since I decided to quit my job and focus 100% on our other endeavors, has been so changeling that I forgot about me. I found myself worrying more about how I was going to be able to afford to go food shopping for the week that I haven’t even been able to allow myself to be creative. The funny thing is, I thought I would have more time to garden, work on this blog, our other blogs, and all our YouTube channels that they all have been suffering and to be honest, we haven’t made it ahead that far on the financial situation.
I came to this realization a little more than a month ago and like I always go, I began to overgeneralize the situation. What went wrong? Quiting my job definitely wasn’t the smartest decision from a business point of view. Don’t get me wrong, our other blogs and YouTube concepts have grown significantly since I decided to stay home. Just not in the way we want and still no where near enough to survive off of. But I started to realize the pattern and I didn’t like it one bit.
Wake up early, make breakfast for the husband, feed the dogs and let them out, sit in front of the computer and start working on everything. I’d skip from task to task and get overwhelmed that nothings working, there’s not enough sales on the online store, not enough hits on the other blog and yesterday it only made us 4 cents. By now it’s noon and I’m still in my PJ’s but its time for lunch. I bring my food with me right back in front of the computer where I go back and forth from one blog to our Facebook group the other blog to checking comments on the YouTube Channel, maybe respond to a few texts and I realize haven’t brushed my teeth yet. That poor garden that I swore I was going to make time for has been neglected and I’m still in my PJs because I refuse to buy any new clothes. Aside form the fact I don’t want to spend money and anything that comes in my size is hideous, I don’t want to buy anything nice until I’ve lost weight. But the amount of money I bring in is directly related to how much work I put into it.
This is crazy. I haven’t edited a video in weeks for any of our YouTube channels. One channel hasn’t had a new video in months! What’s going on here? I not doing anything that I promised myself (and Robert) that I would do. And to be even more honest… EVERYTHING and EVERYONE is annoying me! Somethings got to give. This lifelong battle I have within myself needs to be resolved already. I have the tools, now its time to use to dust them off and use them.
That’s when I said to Robert “Baby! Monday we are going to the gym and I don’t want to hear anything else. We are going and I don’t care how we pay for it. We spend more money on beer in a week than the gym will cost in a month!” I was very determined… But we never went… In fact we’re so stuck in our routine that it has been 4 full weeks now and we still haven’t gone. You know what else I haven’t done? Maybe I could put on a workout video at home? I rearranged the furniture in my house instead (I’m actually pretty proud of it so that wasn’t a waste to be honest). I have a proper office now and of course I’ve began to obsess over how I’m going to install shelving and how to organize it to be more efficient but I haven’t been that efficient.
Life will completely get in your way if you allow it to. It’s up to me to make the right choices and I choose me.
Let’s see how the holidays pan out. I have lots of plans and am determined to see them through. Maybe we can come up with some really nice recipes. Stay tuned.
Until next time!
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